||[Jan. 15th, 2006|02:01 am]
Last night, on the way home from work, I passed an altercation. A woman had just been hit by a man who was with a buddy or 2. She was squatting with her hands over her head, screaming "why'd you hit me? Why'd you hit me?" He kept responding, with a clenched fist at his waist, arm cocked for what seemed like another blow, "I told you last week! I told you last week!"|
Likean ass, like a city dweller who's become too calous to care, I kept on riding, trying to figure out what to do. I slowed down a bit, stopped on a nearby curb, muttered "that's fucked up" to myself, and went home. Like an ass.
It has been a long day at work, sure, but it felt so wrong to just leave. It was so wrong. I think of myself as more than that, as somebody who would step in, or at least call out or call the cops. But I left, feeling powerless.
I moped around all night before going to bed. Jennifer was out to dinner until 12. When she got home, it wasn't long before we went to bed.
At 5:30AM, right south of our building, I heard 9 gunshots. I woke up right away and knew they were very close. I jumped up, put on my glasses, and looked out onto the empty street below. I watched for about 1.5 minutes before I hearing another 2 gunshots.
I was confused, because I wasn't quite sure where the gunshots were coming from. I watched and watched and heard nothing. I heard our new, white neighbor's door opened, and I suddenly feared that something had happened to her. I ran to my door to look out the peephole and saw her door wide open. I ran to the front of the apartment to look down and see if somebody besides her came out, worrying it had been her who was shot. I heard the door close and sighed with relief.
Soon, 2 cop cars zoomed up and began patrolling, and then the morning traffic really started up and I went to bed.
I still don't know what happened, but it has been troubling me all day.
In this neighborhood, it means that the gentrifiers moving in have a reason to have the cops come in, and the cops have a reason to harrass the brown and black folks, and then those folks will slowly start to lose the community, in the intangible sense, they've built here, and then the gentrification will be that much easier.
What a day it was yesterday.